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The Nail


I had marked it as distance
I had begun to call it stranger
Though I had lived in it
I once had dreaded its taste
Even dreaded its memories

I was alive
Alive aimlessly
Alive without a name
I had to run as far as I could
I had to run farther
To evade what was once so precious
To disown what was my world

I had learned to look at it
With bitterness
Whoever talked it was my foe
Whoever smiled in it
Embittered me
I had taught myself all the opposite

The world turned just a stage
Life a vengeance
Memories curdled
I buried everything alive

I was alone
And I was lonely
But I owned it up
I was to live that life
I was living it

Then
Like a sudden breeze would
I was wrapped
I was taken

And you happened
On the grave
I found flowers
Without struggle 
All returned

I could name life
I could name the world
Who would know I would sleep with smiles?
Who could tell dreams had returned?
Who would believe I would pick the graveflowers?

But with them in hands
Sight at the impossible you
Everything inside crumbling in bits
I stood shivering possessed by the picture 
That you would never be mine
All that I seek is the word
That will be the nail in my coffin

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